I heard the voice of God!

June 23rd

I went back to the only place I go nowadays…the hospital. I had to get all my organs checked up. I rushed from one room to another quite mechanically. You see, I am used to baring my body for tests.

One such room that I rushed into was for Echo Cardiogram. I cheerfully changed into a hospital gown and lied down on the narrow bed. The female assistant smiled at me and made me turn to my side. The doctor walked in and chatted up the young girl. He switched on his machine, applied jelly on my breast and began gliding the monitor over it. I lied still and suddenly I heard “slush, slush, slush, slush”. Was that my heart beating? The doctor shifted the monitor while chatting with the girl and again I heard the magical sound of “slush, slush, slush, slush”. But this time it was a deep reverberating sound. That was my heart again!! I wanted to shout out, “ I am alive! I am alive! That’s My heart!”.

I always thought that the heart ticked away like the clock…it went tic, toc, tic, toc. I couldn’t imagine that it could ever sound like the slush of water…in fact like the waves against the sea shore. Of course this rhythm was a lot faster than the sea waves. As I pondered over this it struck me that my little heart has been rhythmically slushing at this pace day and night for the last 48 years that I have been living. If it took a second off from its job, I would have been declared dead!!!! If I wash three loads of linen in the washing machine one day, I worry that it needs to rest. If the computer is old or over worked, it “hangs” itself, if the car has run too many miles, it needs servicing….what about this little machine called the “heart”?

If I stand for too long, I need to sit. If I sit for too long, I need to stand. If I work a little more than usual one day, I need rest. If I am up till late one night, even for a perfectly worthy reason, I need to sleep till late. What about this little “heart”? All the while that I sit or stand or rest or sleep, it works on… slush slush…untiringly!!! What an unnerving thought!!! It hits me so vey hard as I realize that I abuse this little machine just about any time and in any way that I want. If I want to stuff fatty food, I do so. If I want to be lazy, I am. I feel guilty and would like to find a fine majestic excuse…but I cannot. No matter what I do, I want my heart to slush on for ever…never slow down and of course never ever, ever “hang up”!!! Even 100 years is not enough, isn’t it?

So this little heart, the God made little marvel is expected to tick on, forever if possible, and do I question the proof of existence of God??

Pandit Laxminarayanan ji of the Vedanta Institute who teaches us the Bhagawad Gita says that, the fact that we are alive in this world is the proof of existence of God. Today I heard the voice of God!!